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I did not sleep a wink last night. The
electrical currents running through my house forced me to sit in
candle light whilst the unknown, the others floated past, coming in
through closed windows making me aware of their presence. Another
lamp has bit the dust, bulb blowing in a little frenzied spark just
to let me know I have visitors. 'I wonder what they want tonight' I
sighed, as I spot the silvery shadow glint in the night, and which
realm of afterlife are they going to be from hoping the hell raisers
haven't returned already for another nights battle
Still fully remembering the incidents
from only the night before. My mind was eased, where ever this lot
are from, although they have let me know they are here, they seem to
have not come in harm. Well no harm to me anyway. I am in no mood to
want to talk to strangers and ghosts who tell lies. 'I am too
exhausted' I snap ' I have had no sleep'
Two nights now and still no sleep! I
just cannot sleep!.
Although they did not appear to come
in harm something inside would not let me relax. I could not chill I
sat in meditation trying to erase the voices in my head. I can hear
conversations that have taken place or are about to take place.
people visions scenery. I feel strung out, wired as if I have been on
class A's looking like a scruffy junkie, with a wide eyed glare. The
silence around provide a calming relaxed atmosphere to slow down my
dizzy brain activity. I now need a bath to cleanse and clean
I put some clean white pj's on and chill on the couch, I shall never forgive them i think, for if it would be that to forgive releases them of their sins I will never forgive them. They have not just committed sins they have committed crimes., crimes of violation, mind rape, rape both on myself and against humanity, Earth. My insides feel sore, by bones ache. They just will not stop. 'get off me' I scream at them, they do not stop, instead with a poisonous hiss they reply ,make us stop' when they touch, it feels like something under my skin, worms in my stomach. I asked the doctor what was the possibility I could have worms, 'I feel like I am being eaten, sucked from inside' I explained, his face just smiled and he looked at me as to say... yes crackpot full psychosis , yet kind in his reply stated 'no possibility at all' I am seriously under weight yet I eat well or at least I try on the more calmer days of battling with the darker side of death.
I fall asleep.
I wake up cold' the day has changed
into night. The presence is mild, I am tired, I want to go to bed I
feel tied to the sofa, so I have brought blankets from upstairs. The
weather is bitterly cold the wind is calm...I am still in shock over
the past two night battle with the underworld, yet things are slowly
getting better.
The night seem calmer I scan around my living room, check out the damage the living dead caused. My TV has suddenly gone on the blink, and two lamps blew the bulb and conked out. If my stalker was alive, in human form he would be locked up, I would be safe, but he is from the other side. Is it real or am I mad? I can feel the physical pain, I look in the mirror and I can see the scratches on my face as I was scuffling with the unknown, the nameless, faceless voice who could be anyone from anywhere who invades my life.
I speak to Grim he is my Jesus, my man in the moon and say, I have spoken
to Buddha within, and if If it would be ok, i will pray for help and
ask you to support me in that I show them no forgiveness for their
crimes. I do not think I could allow them to hurt anyone else, ever!
I need to find a way to stop them, shut them down do what it states
in the bible and give them eternal damnation. That putting me on a much happier note, I wonder if I should
try and do a little tai chi to relax.
I cannot relax, for as much as I am
attacked by Christianity for stating the word Jesus came from the
French. The jesult millitant, je suis which means I am. I still have faith that there
would be someone out there that represents the meaning. It was not a
mans name initially, but a French word, as back in the year 900bc
France and Spain joined forces with turkey and The Frankish was
formed which later changed in to the jusult militant movement, which
was finally banned. But I speak to Grim, I
need his help. I do not feel bitter or revengefully twisted, i am not consumed
with misery and regret, that's why I am unable to forgive, I just do not
want to forgive I want to put them through punishment, for is it not
said that those who brave the dark find the light? I imagine that
those who are just too dirty for the light could then possibly get
trapped in the dark forever. I need to find a way to release the
innocent who are trapped, and trap the guilty in total darkness.
Lights out, game over good night god bless, kind of dream :-)
For I am the sun.. je suis :-)
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